I’m talking to someone
who really likes me. He makes me smile and laugh. Talking to him comes easy but
I’m not looking for anything at all. I’m really scared, the closer we get to
know each other is another step closer to me having to tell him about my past. It’s
not something I can avoid talking about because it affects everything. Down to
whether or not I can handle a hug that day. I’m really scared because I don’t
know what to do if I really start liking him. I’m scared of the future. Just
thinking about another man even touching me makes me sick to my stomach...........
To be poor is a hardship. But to be poor in the land of dollars is the bottom of hardships. And to be poor and black and female in America is about the bottom of all that. Because we are so irrelevant that's why we can be raped. What difference does it make? It's only a black woman.
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GR i am sorry that your past changed your views over love, sex and intimacy. If you do end up liking him, and he likes you too I am sure he will respect your boundaries and be compassionate towards you.If he can make you feel better then he will understand your pain too.
Black women have to tell our stories--ALL of them so that we can move beyond the pain and the shame.
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