Ugh………so not feeling good right now. This whole week it
feels like my body is off balance. Like I just feel dirty and so violated right
now. I hate being on my period, there’s nothing that I like about it especially
the bleeding part of it. I feel like there are 1 million hands moving all over
my body at the same time. I had just looked down at my nails and almost threw
up because I felt so disgusted by them. I wish I had peace of mind right now. My
stomach is upset. God I used to hate wearing sanitary napkins when I was in
high school. The sight of blood never used to gross me out or anything like
that until I met Frank and he would never rape me when I was on my period thank
god but he would touch my vagina and it always turned my stomach because I still
has the sanitary pad on.
Being on my period just triggers it every time for me and I just
want to cry about it. Something natural as having a period every month just
makes me disgusted with my own body. I had the same problem after I had my
daughter and you bleed 6 weeks after you have a baby and can’t use tampons. Wearing
pads then turned my stomach. the only things that were going through my head
was how nasty I felt when he kept touching me and I’m just not really feeling
anything right now but pain, tears and hurt and I just want it to stop before I
go to work. I’m excited about going to work but I just don’t like the way I’m
feeling right now………
2 comments:
Safe hugs.....
I know GR how it feels to see the blood specially when you had been MADE to bleed out of the normal patterns by those bastards.
Plz GR don't get disgusted of yourself.You are pure,beautiful and as normal as any other lady :)
lots of hugs and Love
<3
PS you are a symbol of strength for many women you know :)
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